AFTER-March

The first few days I was just surviving. Existing.  I have 3 other kids. I couldn't just stop. Fake it till you make it. Sometimes what else can you do.  Especially since Friday was Carson and Jamie's Wedding.  What an emotional roller-coaster.  So sad for me.  So happy for them. I hoped our news didn't put a damper on the festivities.  
** one lady as we were walking out of the temple stopped me to express her condolences ending with:  "I bet you are so mad at God" It really took me aback.  Sad yes.  Disappointed yes.  Angry at God.  No! Without God I couldn't do this.  I don't know why this happened...Why this whole month happened....But God does. And I trust him.

Carson and Jamie were married in the Idaho Falls Temple March 9th at 10 AM.  Jamie's hair and makeup were stunningly gorgeous! Carson had this goofy grin on his face the whole time.  They were both so giddy.  It was cute to watch.  It was so cold and windy.  quick pictures. Then there was a reception that night at the Moore Community Center. A nice big room.  Simple elegant country themed props.  Lots of littles running around made it both fun and hectic. They knocked over the backdrop once and were constantly splashing in the fountains.   Helping to decorate the car was the funnest thing they'd ever done.   Some of the younger ones couldn't help but sample the decorations.  Like a shinny Gingerbread House.  During clean up an old heavy iron wheel fell on Axel's foot; I seriously thought it was broke. Thankfully just a huge bruise. Still; I was done.   I left with a load of kids to Pam's and put them to bed.  What a Day. 

Promised Carson months ago I wouldn't have crazy colors for his wedding but the next week.  I needed something SHOCKING.  You can't help but smile when you see PURPLE in the mirror. Camera lighting shows it blue.  No it is very Violet.  Matches my new Volt Lipsense.  My sisters found a cross stitch pattern for me also. It helped.  A little healing in every stitch.